One Day At A Time

Feelings.  These days, everyone lives by their feelings.  Forget the facts, right and wrong - the question that reigns or rules in our inner being is - Does it feel good?  Does it taste good?  smell good?  sound good?  look good?  feel good?  Chances are........if the answer is "no" to any of these questions, then you will turn away. But if the answer is "yes", you will indulge.  Our society gives us the liberty to proceed in most situations. 


We have the knowledge that fast foods are not healthy for our bodies....but they taste better than salad or grilled chicken........



When we smell the brownies cooking in the kitchen, we have the knowledge that too much is not good for us........yet we eat 2 or 3...........maybe more............



We enjoy hearing the compliments given....that boost our egos and make us feel good.....but how is it beneficial?  We know that true confidence is found within ourselves.......not by what others think of us..........yet, sometimes we strive for those very compliments to make us feel worthy...........worthy of what?



We have the knowledge that our looks are passing and one day - we will all be old and gray.........but we fret over every wrinkle and saggy body part - why?  If you had your youth back - what would you do with it?  A younger look is just a vision.......what happens when the mouth speaks?  There is the key...........



And sex..........or shall I say passion - because they are not the same.  Sex is an act...........passion is a feeling.  When the 2 are mixed - it can be a feeling to be wreckoned with...............I believe this feeling is the cause of most broken homes.  Can you say NO to passion?  When it calls your name away from your home..........can you look it in the face and say GO AWAY?



The older I get...........the more I realize that acting on what feels good..........most of the time - feels bad later.

When will knowledge prevail over our feelings?

Probably - just in time for us to say.........."I'm Perfect!" and "I know it all!" 

 

Incase you are wondering...............I haven't blogged in a while because I'm not a very happy person right now.  I didn't think you'd want to hear all of my negative bitchy bantering.............



Lately, I can't seem to have one positive thought..........I wake up in the morning and voices are going off in my head...........all bitchy stuff............As soon as Ethan says a word - I start mocking him in my head - really stupid stuff..........It could be something as simple as.........he'll walk in the bathroom and say "good morning" and I'll say "morning" and in my head this voice will say (what's so good about it dumbass).............



I must be paying for some of the bad stuff that I've done in my lifetime................I woke up this morning late (my alarm clock didn't go off)...............I had to make the coffee twice.........because the first batch was ruined from a faulty filter.  Have you ever had that happen to you?  Nothing sucks more than to get out of bed late and you are so tired............all you can think about is coffee............give me coffee...................once you finally get to pour that cup...............it's filled with coffee grounds................what a f*cking mess to clean up that early in the morning.................



And that's another thing..............I have been cussing so bad.............I think it's funny that when I get home.........I stop cussing............in other words............I know that I can control it.........I just do it because it feels so good.  Why does it feel good? 



It's because I'm mean, bitchy and irritable and I dont like anyone..............so there! 



Here's the scary thing - I just realized...................duh???  It's my PMS week.  OK - now I feel better..................whew!  I thought I was going psycho for minute................all of this anger.............I was starting to get concerned.