One Day At A Time

2007 had to be one of the most difficult years for me.



Have you ever noticed when a new U.S. President starts his reign - he looks young and vibrant and by the time he has served his 4 to 8 years............he looks like a dried up prune?




That is the way I feel after 2007.



I thought the hardest thing that I'd ever go through was divorce. 

I was wrong.  When my oldest son moved out, I learned an entire new level to pain and I think I matured a little (that's a scary thought). 





I realize now that he is really gone.  My time serving as his mother is over.  He is an adult and he doesn't need me anymore. 




When this reality hit me, I decided that I had to consider every day that I have left with my younger sons as a privilige and an honor. 



The reality is that some day they will leave too and they will not need me anymore.  It is truly a scary thought.  I have been a mother since I was 20 years old (19 years) - that is almost half of my life.  I can't imagine what I'll do with the rest of my life once they are all gone. 







Who will I cuddle and kiss on the cheek? 




 

    



I am determined to enjoy the chaos and be thankful for these wonderful boys that I have been blessed to share my life with. 

 

I like to blog because I like to talk and get things off of my chest. 

Blogging allows me to do this in a creative way.  However, one of the things I really like to talk about is my faith.  You may have noticed, I don’t blog much about that.

I think it’s because of one word that has been used out of context for years…………and this word has been used to fool the world................. 




That word is “hypocrisy or hypocrite”. 



Let me explain to you what I mean……………I am a Christian.  I do not remember a time in my life when I did not believe in God or Jesus. 

When I was 18, God started revealing to me his love in a more active way and since then I have struggled to change.

I have had many seasons where I have been close to God and many seasons where I have been close to myself (very self-centered).  Therefore, I have made many mistakes. 

But here is my point, I find myself hiding my faith in fear of being judged by others.   



My fear is based on the fact that I don’t want people to know that I’m Christian……….because I’m not perfect…….. 

I believe many Christians hide for the same reason.  But here is the truth……..if you believe what the Bible says is true…………then you know that you will never be perfect and no one on earth is. 

We are a work in progress.

For those of you that just said to yourself………….”oh great, here we go – she’s turning into a holy roller………..a Bible thumper……..I wont be visiting this blog anymore”………



all I have to say is….I am the same me! My hope is to be gut wrenchingly honest.

Maybe – I can encourage someone ………or on a more selfish note……….I will encourage myself – I do enjoy talking about God and I enjoy laughing at my own imperfections.