One Day At A Time

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Perfection

Feelings. These days, everyone lives by their feelings. Forget the facts, right and wrong - the question that reigns or rules in our inner being is - Does it feel good? Does it taste good? smell good? sound good? look good? feel good? Chances are........if the answer is "no" to any of these questions, then you will turn away. But if the answer is "yes", you will indulge. Our society gives us the liberty to proceed in most situations.

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We have the knowledge that fast foods are not healthy for our bodies....but they taste better than salad or grilled chicken........

When we smell the brownies cooking in the kitchen, we have the knowledge that too much is not good for us........yet we eat 2 or 3...........maybe more............

We enjoy hearing the compliments given....that boost our egos and make us feel good.....but how is it beneficial? We know that true confidence is found within ourselves.......not by what others think of us..........yet, sometimes we strive for those very compliments to make us feel worthy...........worthy of what?

We have the knowledge that our looks are passing and one day - we will all be old and gray.........but we fret over every wrinkle and saggy body part - why? If you had your youth back - what would you do with it? A younger look is just a vision.......what happens when the mouth speaks? There is the key...........

And sex..........or shall I say passion - because they are not the same. Sex is an act...........passion is a feeling. When the 2 are mixed - it can be a feeling to be wreckoned with...............I believe this feeling is the cause of most broken homes. Can you say NO to passion? When it calls your name away from your home..........can you look it in the face and say GO AWAY?

The older I get...........the more I realize that acting on what feels good..........most of the time - feels bad later.

When will knowledge prevail over our feelings?

Probably - just in time for us to say.........."I'm Perfect!" and "I know it all!"

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Wednesday, May 07, 2008

I have 15 minutes to blog this morning.......

Annual Trip - leaving in 9 days to head south for the river trip..............I have 9 more days to eat right, tan and work off this hail damage on my ass.............I need to invent something that will make hail damage disappear and make my ass nice and tight..........high and firm..............

If some dude sat around and thought up breast implants........then I certainly can invent a way to create a nice ass on a chick................

I realize that breast implants were invented for reconstructive surgery.............but I wonder what man was sitting around and said.........hmmmm........I wonder...... how big can I make them?..................I wonder if I can sell them?

Have you ever asked yourself................if I knew what I knew now...........and I could start over.............what would you do different?????

Sometimes I think I'd either be a lesbian.................or I'd definitely stay away from boys until I was atleast 25.........and possibly even save myself for marriage..................OK - that's a little extreme......

I dont care who you are.................that's just HOT!

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Wednesday, April 30, 2008

PMS - What A Relief.............

Incase you are wondering...............I haven't blogged in a while because I'm not a very happy person right now. I didn't think you'd want to hear all of my negative bitchy bantering.............

Lately, I can't seem to have one positive thought..........I wake up in the morning and voices are going off in my head...........all bitchy stuff............As soon as Ethan says a word - I start mocking him in my head - really stupid stuff..........It could be something as simple as.........he'll walk in the bathroom and say "good morning" and I'll say "morning" and in my head this voice will say (what's so good about it dumbass).............

I must be paying for some of the bad stuff that I've done in my lifetime................I woke up this morning late (my alarm clock didn't go off)...............I had to make the coffee twice.........because the first batch was ruined from a faulty filter. Have you ever had that happen to you? Nothing sucks more than to get out of bed late and you are so tired............all you can think about is coffee............give me coffee...................once you finally get to pour that cup...............it's filled with coffee grounds................what a f*cking mess to clean up that early in the morning.................

And that's another thing..............I have been cussing so bad.............I think it's funny that when I get home.........I stop cussing............in other words............I know that I can control it.........I just do it because it feels so good. Why does it feel good?

It's because I'm mean, bitchy and irritable and I dont like anyone..............so there!

Here's the scary thing - I just realized...................duh??? It's my PMS week. OK - now I feel better..................whew! I thought I was going psycho for minute................all of this anger.............I was starting to get concerned.

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Saturday, April 19, 2008

Looking In The Mirror

Today, I went to Sally's Beauty supply and bought some hair extensions. This has to be the stupidist thing I have done in a while but has led me into a very enlightening experience.

The older I get........the more my hair changes...........it won't grow in length anymore........the texture is changing......it's thinning out a little...........so I had the bright idea of getting hair extensions to see if I could lengthen and thicken my hair..........

I looked like a 40 year old woman trying to look 18.............in other words, the long shiny hair didn't match the maturity in my face. It was awful.

Looking at myself...........realizing that this is it.............I realized that I am finally at a place in my life when I can stop focusing on my outer appearance............now I can focus on my inner me...............

I started asking myself.........why was it so important for my hair to look long and thick...........and I realized...........it was purely vanity. Once again, I am learning the lesson that beauty is on the inside not the outside. Who am I trying to impress anyway?

I realize that it all comes back to a habit I picked up as a teenage girl........trying to be accepted by appearances.........it is strange how some of the habits we pick up, we hang on to and we don't even realize that we have them.........until we get older............I guess that's why they call it growing up.............

The bright side of this day............I had to face the fact that what I've got is who I am...........so I'll make the best of it.

Looks fade...................the heart remains..............besides if you have a good heart - it can make anyone............ beautiful...........no matter how old you are..................